This year I've canceled more spankings than I've accepted

Do I dare consider myself a spankaholic? I need to find myself a boyfriend because whenever I want it most no one is available, and when I'm not in the mood suddenly everyone has time. But coming out to a boy, unless I meet him in the scene, will be a process. I'm getting old here. I don't want to wait anymore. I need someone who wants to spank me as much as I crave it.